Personal Reflection on Surah Taha

'This Surah held up a mirror I wasn’t ready for.'

There’s something uncomfortable about Surah Taha.

Not because it’s hard to understand 
But because it’s hard to face.

I used to read the story of Musa (AS) like a bedtime tale. Familiar, safe.
He stood before Pharaoh. He parted the sea. He made history.

But I never noticed how human he was.

He was afraid.
He hesitated.
He told Allah straight up, 'I can’t do this alone.'
And instead of rebuking him, Allah gave him Harun. Gave him calm. Gave him backup.
And I realized asking for help doesn’t mean you’re weak.
It means you trust Allah enough to admit your limits.

Then there’s Pharaoh. The villain.

But sometimes, I catch traces of him in me.
When I want control.
When I refuse advice.
When I pretend I know better.
When I judge others, but excuse my own behavior.

He thought he was god. I’ve never said that out loud but how many times have I acted like I know best?

That was hard to admit.


The golden calf story hit even harder.

The people saw the sea split. They were saved from death. And yet… they still ended up worshipping a calf.

And I thought: If they can forget Allah after seeing miracles with their own eyes… what’s stopping me from doing the same after my duas get answered?

I’ve seen moments where Allah clearly helped me.
Yet later, I panic. I scroll endlessly. I numb out. I chase distractions.
That calf may be ancient, but I think we’ve all built our own versions of it.

Anything we turn to more than Allah — that’s our calf.
Even if it looks like a goal, a habit, a person, or a screen.



Then came the verse that wouldn’t let me sleep:

'Whoever turns away from My remembrance – for him is a life of hardship.' (20:124)

That line didn’t feel like a threat.
It felt like a diagnosis.

The low days. The heavy heart. The random anxiety.
Not all of it is from life.
Some of it is from forgetting why I’m here.

This life feels hard because I’m trying to live it without the One who gave it to me.
Simple, but brutally honest.


And then the verse that quietly broke me:

'My Lord, why have You raised me blind, while I used to see?'

That shook me.

Because physical blindness is one thing.
But spiritual blindness — where you walk through life chasing the wrong things, ignoring the truth, wasting time — that’s worse.

What if I’ve been spiritually blind and didn’t even know it?

What if I’ve been seeing the world through a lens that leaves Allah out?


But here’s what I love most about Surah Taha:

It doesn’t leave you in guilt.

It doesn’t just expose the problem — it gives you a way out.

'We did not send down this Qur’an to distress you…' (20:2)

This book is not a burden. It’s a light.

And now I’m trying to treat it like one — not a school subject, not a routine checklist, but a manual for how to survive this life with my soul intact.



So what do I take from this Surah?
• I’m allowed to fear — but I’m not allowed to forget Who’s with me.
• I need to stop romanticizing distractions — they might be my personal calf.
• And most of all, I don’t want to wake up in the next life blind… because I ignored what really mattered in this one.

It’s uncomfortable.
But maybe discomfort is where change begins.

#personalreflection 
#quranreflection
#surahTa-ha

Jazak Allah khair for a beautiful reflection. It felt like I had someone vested in my improvement guide me. May Allah bless you and all your readers/commentators unlimited contentment, ease, happiness and protect you from all evil. Ameen.

There is a deep truth in this ayah. When I stray from the remembrance of Allah, I feel it, an unease that creeps into the quiet moments, a restlessness in my chest, a heaviness that no human comfort can lift. But the moment I return, even just a little, that darkness begins to lift.

This is a reminder to myself first: Don’t place your peace in the hands of someone who’s still searching for their own. Anchor it in the One who never falters, never fails, and never stops loving you... even when you forget Him.

If you’re struggling with sins, desires, or even staying consistent with good deeds — this is what’s helped me, and it’ll help you too:

The thing that keeps me away from sins now is takwa - being close to Allah, having fear of losing connection with Allah swt, craving closeness and love of Allah SWT and to be in guidance of Allah swt in this duniya.

And that is why i miss Ramadan so much already - I miss Taraweeh, the peace of iftar, and Tahajjud — those quiet nights where it’s just you and Allah. That personal love from the Creator of everything (as Allah swt loves you too). That’s what keeps me away from — it’s the love of Allah that pulls me away from sins and towards good deeds.

Brothers and sisters, this is the paradise of this duniya -

'Indeed, there is a paradise in this world. Whoever does not enter it, will not enter the paradise of the Hereafter.'
'It is the sweetness of faith, the closeness to Allah, the serenity of the heart in His remembrance.' - As Ibn Taymiyyah (rahimahullah) said beautifully.

I know that even if I had billions, the perfect home, the most beautiful spouse, or the ideal family — You’d still find me praying in the last third of the night, begging for the closeness and love of Allah, because that is the greatest treasure.

The best sweetest thing in this duniya is being clode to Allah SWT and The best feeling — the remembrance of Allah.

Once you feel it — your heart changes. You fall in love with halal. You crave to please Allah. You run to do good deeds.

'There is no punishment in existence more severe than being veiled from Allah and distant from Him.' - Ibn al-Qayyim (rahimahullah)

Alhamdulillah for all the hardships and guidance that led me this close to Allah SWT (check my previous post for full story). I'm fortunate for every hardship.

And if you’re someone who feels overwhelmed by sins, shame, or regret — please remember:
Allah does not judge you by your sins, He judges you by your repentance. He is waiting for you to return. He’s looking for any reason to forgive you and give you goodness in this world and akhirat.

All you need is one sincere intention… just to take the first step. My previous post was solely upon how just a intention can bring you so close to Allah SWT. 

May Allah forgive us all, have mercy upon us, guide us on the right path and may Allah relieve everyone in Gaza. Ameen ya Rabbul Alamin.

[In my next post, I’ll share how doing certain things before and after Salah brings a deep sense of relief after every prayer-how iman, takwa and tawakkul grow deeper and stronger with each salah]

jazakallah khair

Zoya Zoya  jazak allah khair 
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I felt this ayah recently. There was a time I was negligent in opening the Mus'haf a few months ago. For about 15-20 days, I stopped memorizing the Quran and reading it. Ofcourse, the Quranic reels on insta and a few visits to www.quran.com sometimes were there, but your heart yearns for more than that.

Let me tell you, the way I was taking Duniya serious in those 15-20 days was absolutely insane. It felt like my Taqwa diminished, and I was on myself to figure things out you know, embarrassingly, we are nothing without Allah in 24 hrs of the day till we die. It's scary, what semi-intentionally not busying yourselves with the book of Allah (and taking Duniya seriously) or not indulging in Zikr daily can do to your brain and mindset.

We are opening our Mus'hafs and reciting Zikr only due to the mercy of Allah. Keep that in mind.

They say,˺ 'Our Lord! Do not let our hearts deviate after you have guided us. Grant us Your mercy. You are indeed the Giver ˹of all bounties˺.
Quran 3:8

As Muslims, we can indeed have feelings of sadness. But, Allah has said that he will live a miserable life if you do not seek Him. Did you miss Fajr? That’s why you feel empty today. A wise Muslim man/woman realizes sadness and depression as an opportunity to head in Sujood and ask Allah SWT for relieving of burden and negative thoughts instead of going around and asking people for help. People can’t change your situation, Allah can. 

If we perform this on a daily basis, which Ar-Rahmaan gives us a chance 5 times a day, we can never be depressed. This is why developing Taqwa is necessary, concentration in prayer benefits your nafs, not Allah SWT. He is independent from our deeds. 

We should remind ourselves that we are the one being tested, and we are not doing favours to Allah by our Ibadah. No one can be admitted to paradise except by His mercy and His mercy alone. 

The western society has over-emphasized the concept of depression so much so that the global youth thinks that they are fighting inner demons but neglect the blessings Allah ﷻ has provided. 

We often overlook the basic necessities as we think it is a normal acquisition of every human. Try explaining your problems to the Palestinians being bombed in Gaza. You will sound like a fool to them. May Allah ﷻ have mercy on them.

Assalaamu Alaikum,

Thank you for sharing your reflective thoughts on seeking solace in prayer and turning to Allah in times of sadness and struggle. Your reminder about the importance of connecting with Allah through prayer, especially during challenging moments, is a powerful message that resonates with the essence of faith and reliance on the Creator.

Your insights on utilising prayer as a means to seek relief from burdens and negative thoughts, rather than solely seeking help from people, highlight the spiritual strength and comfort that can be found in turning to Allah in times of need. The emphasis on developing Taqwa (God-consciousness) and recognizing the mercy and independence of Allah in granting relief and blessings is a crucial reminder for all believers.

Your perspective on the tendency to overlook blessings and basic necessities, as well as the impact of societal perceptions of depression, offers a refreshing and thought-provoking outlook on gratitude and perspective. It's a humbling reminder to appreciate the blessings bestowed upon us and to maintain a sense of compassion and empathy towards those enduring greater hardships.

May Allah continue to guide and bless you with strength, gratitude, and an unwavering connection to Him through prayer and faith. Your reflections serve as a source of inspiration and contemplation for all who read them.

Jazak Allah Khair for sharing your profound insights and reflections.

𝐀𝐥𝐥𝐚𝐡'𝐬 𝐦𝐞𝐬𝐬𝐚𝐠𝐞 𝐢𝐬 𝐥𝐢𝐤𝐞 𝐚 𝐥𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐭. Think of it as something that shows us the right path in life. 
𝐓𝐮𝐫𝐧𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐚𝐰𝐚𝐲 𝐟𝐫𝐨𝐦 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐥𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐭 𝐢𝐬 𝐥𝐢𝐤𝐞 𝐰𝐚𝐥𝐤𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐢𝐧 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐝𝐚𝐫𝐤. It can be difficult to make good choices and feel happy without guidance.
𝐀 '𝐝𝐞𝐩𝐫𝐞𝐬𝐬𝐞𝐝 𝐥𝐢𝐟𝐞' 𝐝𝐨𝐞𝐬𝐧'𝐭 𝐣𝐮𝐬𝐭 𝐦𝐞𝐚𝐧 𝐬𝐚𝐝𝐧𝐞𝐬𝐬. It can also mean feeling lost, unfulfilled, or like something is missing.

This verse is saying that if we ignore Allah's message, we might end up feeling lost and unhappy, even if our life seems good on the outside. 

𝑯𝒐𝒘 𝒄𝒂𝒏 𝒘𝒆 𝒔𝒕𝒂𝒚 𝒄𝒐𝒏𝒏𝒆𝒄𝒕𝒆𝒅 𝒕𝒐 𝑨𝒍𝒍𝒂𝒉'𝒔 𝒎𝒆𝒔𝒔𝒂𝒈𝒆?  (Through prayer, reading the Quran, good deeds)

𝑾𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒂𝒓𝒆 𝒔𝒐𝒎𝒆 𝒘𝒂𝒚𝒔 𝒘𝒆 𝒎𝒊𝒈𝒉𝒕 𝒊𝒈𝒏𝒐𝒓𝒆 𝑨𝒍𝒍𝒂𝒉'𝒔 𝒎𝒆𝒔𝒔𝒂𝒈𝒆, 𝒆𝒗𝒆𝒏 𝒊𝒇 𝒘𝒆 𝒅𝒐𝒏'𝒕 𝒎𝒆𝒂𝒏 𝒕𝒐?  (Getting caught up in worldly things, neglecting our faith)

By reflecting on these questions, we can strive to live a life that is both happy and fulfilling, according to Allah's will.

In the Name of Allah, the Most Gracious, the Most Kind,

When we fix our relationship sincerely with Allah, we notice the change in our outlook with everything and especially with our relationships with His creation.

If our relationship with Allah is strong and more mindful then we are mindful of the rights others have upon us, we fear Allah with our dealings with one another, we maintain ties of kinship for the sake of Allah. We keep healthy boundaries against evil company and influence, we visit the sick and we are eager to come to the help of one another. We confer rights even upon non- Muslims and our non Muslim relatives. 

We do these things with greater affection, and we bear with patience with fellow Muslims and we hate to bear grudges and look to forgiving each other quickly so that Allah will forgive us. We overlook pettiness and focus upon the One who will shade two who love each other for His sake (on the Day of Judgement). 

Despite, enduring so much Yusuf Alahis salaam forgave his brothers. 

So if you want true peace in your life , let us start with fixing our relationship first and foremost with the Creator; having deep love and fear. We will understand better how to handle our relationships with His creation.

How can we expect peace and happiness without bettering our relationship with Allah?

#Allah
#peace
#contentment
#relationships

Ramadan is the month of Quran, a duration when we have a maximum connection with the Quran.
A comparative pre and post-Ramadan 'self' made me realize that there is nothing in this world except the Quran that:
1. Cures the Strom, diseases, and confusions of the heart. (وَشِفَآءٌ لِّمَا فِى ٱلصُّدُورِ) 
2. Brings tranquility to the heart. ( أَلَا بِذِكْرِ ٱللَّهِ تَطْمَئِنُّ ٱلْقُلُوبُ) 

Inculcation of a few teaching during Ramadan taught me that without it I have been living a dull, dry and dark life (وَمَنْ أَعْرَضَ عَن ذِكْرِى فَإِنَّ لَهُۥ مَعِيشَةً ضَنكًا) no matter how glamorous it might be externally.

Now that we have gone through this amazing exercise to attain taqwa(هُدًى لِّلْمُتَّقِينَ) . It must give us joy that now we have the prerequisite for guidance and it also qualifies us for one of the greatest friendship, a friendship with Allah( وَٱللَّهُ وَلِىُّ ٱلْمُتَّقِينَ) 
And this is 'the' only ship that definitely does not sink.

There are certain moments in life where there is an air of melancholy. In such a moment, I tried to pinpoint the reason but to no avail. The more I pondered, the more dejected I had become. How do I overcome this unexplainable feeling that has left me vulnerable? I should be content in life, as I thought to myself with having certain luxuries. Perhaps if I took a brisk walk, it would clear my mind. It did not. I was sluggish in my form and further overcome by pensive sadness. My positive affirmations were useless because my will was depleted. I walked by a beautiful masjid and saw a man praying outside one of the masjid's doors (Covid-19 restrictions). I paused with my eyes fixed on this man with great admiration. يا الله are my actions as a believer inadequate from what I have witnessed? I returned home with much reflection on what I had observed. My mind was still in a precarious state, but there was now a focal point — my actions as a believer were highlighted. It dawned upon me that I must strive harder to nourish my soul. My perception of doing 'enough' is simply 'not enough'. There is always a new milestone to achieve as a believer. For this reason, I was submerged in emotion until I succumbed to tears. As I briefly wept, I found contentment which wiped away my trepidation. I soon realised my sadness was because of my yearning for my Lord. الله عزوجل softens the heart of a believer and within it creates love and mercy. سبحان الله.

I believe the cycle is perpetual الحمد الله. This means, we as Muslims should try and renew our objectives often to become closer to our Lord. ان شاء الله. Wa-e-yaa-kum (واياكم) and امين sister.

Alhamdulillah, the imam chose very carefully what he recited today. 

In the first rakah he recited one of the well known verses 
'....Surely in the rememberance of Allah do hearts find comfort' 

And in the second rakah he recited the opposite scenario 
'Those that turn away from the rememberance of Allah , will have a miserable life....' 

The journey of the heart never ends , it's stuck in a continuous state of beginning. The heart jumps from comfort to discomfort untill it is caught up by death. And that is the reality that we all face. 

The choices are clear, as AmritS said in one of her reflections it's a constant pull and push. Sometimes we need that pull , and at other times we need that push. The pull comes from the hope in the mercy of Allah , and the push comes from the fear of displeasing Allah.

Today it felt like I needed a push, 

As the imam continued he reached ayah 34 in surah Ra'd speaking of the punishment of the disbelievers. 

What got me was the mention of the intensity of punishment of hell. Imagine the worst punishment of the world , that is nothing compared to what is in store for the people of hell. 

When we think of punishment we think of physical pain, but there's another form of pain that can be greater, and that is emotional pain. 

What will be the mental state of those people? 
The feeling of complete isolation, failure, rejection, worthlessness, betrayal, deprivation from the Mercy of Allah, self hate and more.

Any one of these in this world can paralyze a person's mind and drag him into depression, imagine 
these all at once. 

With all this in mind , as Sh. Suhaib Webb said ' it is Haram to give up on the Mercy of Allah' 

If you read all this so far and have mixed emotions then know that all these are different feelings of the same heart, that flips and turns. Just like a fish outside of the water, it only relaxes untill it is returned to the ocean. And the heart also, will only find comfort when it returns to the ocean of knowledge that is the Quran, containing the rememberance of Allah. 

إلا بذكر الله تطمئن القلوب

Jazak Allah khairun I needed to read this again 