ثُمَّ كَانَ عَلَقَةً فَخَلَقَ فَسَوَّىٰ

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

سبحان الله. سبحان الله. سبحان الله.

Just looked at this ayah, then looked at it again. 

I was in a moment of self criticism. Blaming myself, disappointed, unhappy with the way I was organising my day and apportioning my time and performing my actions. My friends will know this as just how I am. I fret. I worry. And I turn around and say — I can't believe I'm this low. What happened to me?

And then when Allah ﷻ reminds, He just knocks away all of my negative thoughts with single strike.

In this ayah, He ﷻ says:

أَلَمۡ يَكُ نُطۡفَةࣰ مِّن مَّنِيࣲّ يُمۡنَىٰ

"Were they not ˹once˺ a sperm-drop emitted?" (75:37)

And I say to myself: yes. I was. That.. that's true. I have to admit that.

So. If I was that. What was I then? Was I organised? Was I put- together? Punctual? Studious? Pious? Probably not. I wasn't any of that.

How often do I forget that beautiful name of Allah ﷻ – Al Khaliq! That He ﷻ created me when that was all I was. He created me into something new. 

ثُمَّ كَانَ عَلَقَةࣰ فَخَلَقَ فَسَوَّىٰ

"Then they became a clinging clot ˹of blood˺, then He developed and perfected their form," (75:37)

Allah ﷻ created me. From the drop to the clinging clot to the complete form – me, a human being. 

He created me. How often do I remember that? He actually created me. So why can't He create me again?

It would be wrong of me to criticise and give up on myself when I don't know what Allah ﷻ will create me to be tomorrow. 

When I sin, why can't He create me into someone that corrects themselves, into a pious person of greater taqwa?
When I delay, why can't He create me into a person who is active and helpful and has baraka in my time?
When I despair, why can't He create me into a person of incredible hope and happiness and positivity that astounds the world?

He created me once, from something humble into something amazing. He can do it again. And I don't understand why I don't expect that of Him ﷻ? I should. I should expect that He ﷻ helps me. 

The one who can make a human being from a drop, He ﷻ can surely improve all our situations. 

سبحان الله العظيم!

Reflections on Surah Al-Qiyamah Ayah 38